on repeat: vanilla twilight

So my friend Jak recommended Owl City to me way back 

but it took time before he grew on me. 

So now after browsing Owl City's discography,

here's what caught my ears:

off the same album as Fireflies, Ocean Eyes:

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear, 
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue, 
But it's not the same without you, 
Because it takes two to whisper quietly, 

The silence isn't so bad, 
Till I look at my hands and feel sad, 
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

(these are the lyrics which caught my ears

and made me look at the title of the song from iTunes

cheesy ain't it?)

I'll find opposing new ways, 
Though I haven't slept in two days, 
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight, 
I'll sit on the front porch all night, 
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past, 
I'd whisper in your ear, 
Oh darling I wish you were here.

burning out

I don't wanna take a step back, but I'm running on emptiness. We're just no longer on the same track and it's killing me in every way.

You take me in; shut me out, you're breaking me down. Tell me that I'm the one but I see through your lies. It's all misleading, you keep me bleeding, it's like I'm burning out, burning out.

You're making me feel so alone. Baby just let me let go cause I just can't escape your ghost. The fire you started once is now burning out, burning out.

I'm burning out, burning out
I just fade away
We're burning out, burning out
We keep for burning out, burning out

I can't find myself leaving. And it hurts with every breath I take that I will never know the feeling of you loving me the same way.

Have you ever even noticed all the pain when you look into my eyes? Tell me, have you ever even thought about that I'm burning, I'm burning out

You're making me feel so alone. Baby just let me let go cause I just can't escape your ghost

The fire you started once is now burning out

Burning out; Tata Young

Make me stop listening to this song!

On the opposite coast of sadness

Only Human

Lyrics: Osanai Mai Translation: Jonathan Wu

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on

i stumbled upon this music video today

by a japanese artist named K.

the lyrics are very poetic

and creates dream like images in my head.

K's voice is filled with a sadness that is haunting,

i couldn't help gravitate towards it.

and my sad song addiction continues

Aloha: Is it Hello? Is it Goodbye?

Vector - Maaya Sakamoto

If you'd rather be somewhere
that's not here
then you just gotta tell me
Cause there's so much more to life,
than pretending

It takes Courage, courage to be honest to others,and more importantly to ourselves.
Just as it takes courage to take responsibility and to move forward.

We are responsible for our own happiness.
We are responsible for our action, our words, and thoughts.
Are we, however, consequently responsible
for the indirect byproducts of our deeds?
and if such, does that then
partially place in our hands
the happiness of others?

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

It's Friday, I'm In Love

Missing friday lunch dates...

Friday Lunch Bunch by: Moi

markers on graphing paper

I don't care if Monday's black

Tuesday, Wednesday heart attack

Thursday never looking back

It's Friday, I'm in love

- THE CURE

When i was still a student, 

I didn't see why there was something to be thankful about Fridays. 

 Saturdays are so much better.

But now that I'm working, 

waking up on a Friday feels like getting a glimpse of a finish line.

After running a week's worth of work, 

Friday is the finish line and the upcoming weekend is always the reward.

PARTIED AND HUNG

here is a very, very good advice:
never ever drink: cuervo + gilbey's green tea + bacardi + absolut + patron tequila
all in one night
else, you will find yourself hung over the following morning
and singing this song all day the following day:



ooh, and is that chelsea from girlicious i spy? apparently, it is! i have a soft spot for that girl...

Where Does the Good Go?

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
Look me in the heart and unbreak broken, it won't happen